We go to Venice tomorrow, to find the most hidden of all the cafes. A rat with ribs splayed open alighted on the steps of a canal at low tide teeming with insects. An enormous squid has made its way into the flooded Piazza San Marco overnight and has sprayed its ink over the columns of one side of the piazza as it suffocated in the shallow water. Its late August and not one tourist was here to take note.
Clothing is architecture, cars are architecture, these we inhabit. We cannot hold them, they are not masks, they are bodies. These are not objects, they are architecture.
Writing can be sublime, but it is much more a wrenching ache. An ache you feel beyond your body. Whatever part of you that moves your feet, flips through your memories, and forms the words meant for your mouth, hurts as you strain to pull words and ideas out of it.
------------ "Sorry, that was a cryptic melange of symbols. I was probing blindly into an otherness, treading a liminal boundary, erecting a vertical syllogism. ------------Excuse me if I forgot all the details ------------ what are they to me anyways, except replaceable?" ------------
-------------------------------I think I spoke to you about my dream the other night, it was a steady flicker of pain that seemed to burn the whole night long. I was trapped it seemed in a movie I was watching my self act in where I had forgotten all my lines. I was mute and being asked to speak, and dancing a stuttering dance. Everyone expected me to keep the scene going and tried condescendingly to play along with my fright, the stage and its players would flick smoothly through various arrangements and I only froze more completely, and then the ground became frictionless and an exit impossible. -------------------------------
How do you prepare your bed? How do you keep you sheets clean? Why are your covers wound into a knot? What do you keep underneath, is it a comfort is it a pain? Do you dream? Do you count the hours you lie awake?
We have followed our path too far Infinity is rushing towards us, to cut us down Like the horizon it seems to be unreachable, But the horizon is a blade.